Monday, 7 November 2016


It's been exactly one week since I last saw my boyfriend (Ben his name is). And it has quite literally been one of the hardest but also one of the  most sentimental weeks of my life.

After Ben left I did A LOT of researching about being in the RAF and also being a family member of someone who is in the RAF because, like any boyfriend, he often replied with 'I dunno'. And that's one thing I really struggle with: not knowing. It has come to my attention though that there is not a great deal of information, or personal experiences, out there for people my age having a boyfriend going into basic training. So allow me to take it away...

I'm going start by saying that I am a needy girlfriend. Not needy in the sense that I can't do things for myself, but needy in the sense that I  crave attention, and obviously once your other half leaves for the military attention is not what you get. It's not all that bad though; if I can get over it anybody can!

Day 1 - Tuesday
Before leaving him, the night before I gave him a photo album of the pictures we had together (I don't have much money at the moment) but he seemed to really like it. Which is good because I'm a massive fanatic of all things sentimental! The day he left he drove to Halton himself which meant we had to text each other goodbye at about 1pm since I was at college and had classes to go to. We didn't talk again that first day until about 9pm, which I think is something that really did upset me because I thought that I wouldn't be able to talk to my babes until 9pm every night, which isn't ideal seems as I do love an early night. He also sent me a photo of his new haircut that night too which also upset me far more than it should have. Not because it looked bad but because it wasn't 'him'.

Day 2 - Wednesday
I think this was the hardest day out of all of them. I ended up crying to my college teacher who was kind enough to comfort me a little which was nice. I also had a driving lesson this day so had to pick myself up for that to avoid any collisions. I also saw my friend for about an hour in the evening which was nice but sure enough I went home and sobbed my heart out to my mum (who by the way has been ever so lovely). I don't think Ben messaged me again until about 9pm, which obviously I understand - he's bound to be busy. It was just difficult going from being able to talk to him about anything at any time to having to hold everything in and talk for a short time at night.He also told me this night that he wasn't sure if he wanted to continue with the training and this absolutely broke my heart as his mum had just messaged me telling me he's wanted to do this since he was 11 and I in no way wanted to affect his performance!

Day 3 - Thursday
I spent the day at my new job on Thursday so my new colleagues must think I'm the most miserable, anti-social, little bitch ever. Oh well. That evening was the worst we'd experienced as a couple though. Although I had managed to have my first phone call with him emotions were flying high and I told Ben that it would be best if we stopped seeing each other - WHAT A MISTAKE THAT WAS! Being the gentleman he is he told me that he understands and that he doesn't want to argue with me. I then did what any typical girl would do and cried myself to sleep.

Day 4 - Friday
I firstly want to say that since Friday I have had absolutely no doubts about our relationship, I haven't cried once and I'm the happiest I have ever been! I woke up and told Ben how sorry I was for everything I had said the night before and that I was totally wrong. He forgave me and finished early that evening so we had a decent amount of time to talk that and that honestly made me so happy! I called him while I was with my mum and best friend and we had such a long and lovely conversation.

Day 5, 6 & 7 - Saturday, Sunday, Monday
Everything has been bliss the past couple of days! I've spent my time at work or with my bestie (Kathryn) and family. Ben and I are on the best terms we have ever been on and I cannot wait to see his beautiful face in just 24 days!

A Little Side Note...
Although not related to this post particularly I just want to say that although my love for all things beauty is still going strong, I want to start posting more random chats and about how my current life is going - a little bit like an open diary. When I started this blog I very much just wanted to be able to take pretty pictures of my makeup and put it on, but two years later and I've decided that, actually, I love talking and rambling on about my little life. So that's exactly what I'm going to do.

If you have any questions at all about how I'm finding life as an RAF girlfriend please don't hesitate to ask! You can even message me on my social media if you'd like. See ya soon!


Wednesday, 28 September 2016


Admittedly, most people probably haven't noticed my absences from the world of blogging, but I have decided to return from my not so little break and thought a short but sweet explanation may be useful. Here goes!

The Past:
Like most people (I hope) I blog for the enjoyment. So, without going into too much detail as to why I wasn't exactly enjoying life when I stopped blogging it had something to do with the fact I had just come out of a fairly lengthy relationship and was quickly approaching my AS exams. I also wasn't enjoying school at all, partly down to the dreaded English lessons I had to attend and I guess I just didn't want the added pressure of keeping a blog while going through several stressful experiences.

The Present:
Now though, I am sure you will be glad to hear that I am in a far better place, hence the return to my blog. In the few months I have been away I have managed to pass my AS exams (although I will hopefully be retaking one exam to do even better), I have passed my driving theory test, started seeing someone new, found a new best friend, dropped English at school and started my UCAS applications - fun times!

The Future:
The future is looking bright, but also challenging. The wonderful new gentleman I have recently started seeing is joining the RAF soon so that in itself is going to be an obstacle I am raring to overcome. In the time he's away I hope to better myself by staying positive, continuing to surround myself with the right people and studying extra hard. My driving test is booked (but that's a secret, shh), my 18th birthday is just around the corner and it's currently my favourite time of year! I'm prepared for the difficult decisions that I may have to face soon and I have also learnt that it's ok to feel down sometimes; everything always happens for a reason. Life is bliss.

Here's to many more blog posts to follow, CHEERS!!


Tuesday, 12 April 2016


As you may or may not have noticed I haven't blogged for a while. Without going into too much detail, because I want my blog to be somewhere both I and anyone else can come for a peaceful read, I broke up with my (at the time) boyfriend. Just to get it out there though I am not upset about the breakup, I'm actually in a really happy place at the moment and I am more than aware that I don't, nor does any other female, need a man in their life to be happy.

Now I've cleared that up I can get into what I think is a very exciting post! Just before easter my family got two new bunnies. I'm not entirely sure what breed they are but of course I do know that they're both females and are about 24 weeks old. The black one is mine and is called Muffin and the white, patchy one is my sisters and is called Jambo. I took the photos a while back when they were still living inside and only just being introduced to their run, hence why their cage is inside and their run is on the patio. Now however, they're living outside in their hutch and they love running around their run on the grass. 

I'm also going to apologise now for the lack of uploads that are on their way. I'm in exam season now and I'm a ridiculous stress head anyway, but hopefully I'll be uploading a lot more in the summer when I have 6 weeks off - I can't wait.


Tuesday, 8 March 2016


While I was in London I paid a visit to Urban Decay where I decided to pick up the All Nighter Makeup Setting Spray after hearing amazing things about it online. I have to say though, I've been really disappointed with it.

Let's start at the beginning - the packaging. I really like the colours and the simplicity of the design, however I even dislike the material of the bottle. It's the sort of sticky plastic which gets dirty really quickly. And obviously, since it's a setting spray I use it after touching a bunch of other makeup, meaning the bottle just gets really grubby really quickly. Having said that the gift bags that Urban Decay sell their products in are super cute, especially if you're buying something as a gift for someone else.

The box and the bottle of the spray clearly state the instructions: "mist face 2-4 times in an "X"and "T" formation" as well as claiming what the product should do: stop the makeup from melting, cracking, fading or setting into fine line. So, how much do I agree with this statement? Not very much at all. I haven't seen a difference since using the spray; at the end of a school day my makeup still sets into fine lines and cracks/cakes up in certain areas, for example around my nose. The spray cost me £22 and to be honest, I'm gutted that I didn't buy the Naked Illuminated instead!

I'm don't want to the person who puts you off buying this product because I know a lot of other people have had a huge success with it! Especially if you're after a setting spray particularly to keep oily skin at bay as Urban Decay do have a spray particularly for that.

I will continue to use this product, especially in the summer when it's much warmer and if I do notice anything and begin to like it I will write an update straight away. If you've tried the spray and it worked for you then please tell me your secrets! I hope this post was in some way helpful.


Tuesday, 1 March 2016


Reading and watching other people's monthly favourites is one of my favourite so it's surprising that I've never written one myself. But, of course, there's a first time for everything. I haven't found that many favourites this month and I'm not sure it's because nothing else can compare to the things that I have liked, or if I genuinely just haven't (re)discovered anything and fallen in love with it. Having said that I do still have a few things that I've been really enjoying so without further ado, let's get into the post.
My first favourite this month is the khaki bomber jacket in the image above. I've seen a lot of bomber jackets across social media and in multiple shops over the past few weeks and the more I saw them the more I couldn't resist. Since my favourite colour is khaki at the moment that's the colour I decided the get, especially as the model wearing the coat really suited it and had blonde hair. Since I ordered the coat online I decided to order one from Newlook for £35 as I trust the quality of Newlook and it would have been easy enough to return if I decided that I didn't like it. Although I don't think £35 is an unreasonable amount of money to pay for a coat that I will wear a lot over the spring and summe I do know that have a lot of cheaper alternatives if you're willing to take the chance.

It's funny how I never used to wear eyeshadow but now I can't imagine not wearing it. So obviously, that means that I want it to last all day, and what better way to make that happen than by using a primer? I remember receiving four, free sample Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potions when I got my Naked 3 palette. Despite them only being sample there's loads of product in each sachet so although I haven't made any plans to purchase a full sized one yet, I definitely will be when I run out!

One of my New Year's resolutions was to develop a decent skincare routine. Since January I picked up a small version of the Garnier Micellar Cleansing Water and I love it so much! It's the most amazing makeup remover I have ever used and because it's so good at removing all my makeup it means my pores aren't clogged equalling no spots! It's also super cheap so that's a bonus!

While trying different skin care products I've also been battling with my blackheads. As disgusting as they are everybody has them and everybody is desperate to get rid of them. I often scroll through the app "Wish" - probably when I'm procrastinating. One of the things I always see on there are these black blackhead strips. Before I ordered them I had no idea that the actual strips were of a thick liquid formula that you paste onto your skin yourself. It's much more practical as everyone's nose and face shape are different. And of course they work, else they wouldn't be in my favourites.

My next favourite is a makeup item and it's the ABH Dipbrow Pomade in the shade Medium Brown. I don't believe that this is the first time I have mentioned this little jar of wonder on my blog and it definitely won't be the last. I know I'm a little late on the bandwagon, but I was always a little sceptical about getting it in the first place as I thought it was going to be super expensive, but actually it was £15, which isn't too bad at all, especially when you consider how high quality it is and how long it will last.

Every day since Christmas I have worn the Britney Spears Fantasy perfume and it is beautiful! However, over the past few weeks I decided to switch to using a perfume from the Body Shop called Japanese Cherry Blossom Eau De Toilette. It's such a pretty, floral scent and makes me feel so much better when I wear it.

My final favourite is this beautiful 'Rebel Purse'. Originally I bought it from Topshop, but it is from the brand Skinny Dip and while I was in London I went into Skinny Dip and also saw the purse in there. As well as the black and white pattern going beautifully with the yellow, the black pompom also makes it that little bit better!

I hope you enjoyed this post. Hopefully I'll be doing more monthly favourites in the future!