Monday, 7 November 2016


It's been exactly one week since I last saw my boyfriend (Ben his name is). And it has quite literally been one of the hardest but also one of the  most sentimental weeks of my life.

After Ben left I did A LOT of researching about being in the RAF and also being a family member of someone who is in the RAF because, like any boyfriend, he often replied with 'I dunno'. And that's one thing I really struggle with: not knowing. It has come to my attention though that there is not a great deal of information, or personal experiences, out there for people my age having a boyfriend going into basic training. So allow me to take it away...

I'm going start by saying that I am a needy girlfriend. Not needy in the sense that I can't do things for myself, but needy in the sense that I  crave attention, and obviously once your other half leaves for the military attention is not what you get. It's not all that bad though; if I can get over it anybody can!

Day 1 - Tuesday
Before leaving him, the night before I gave him a photo album of the pictures we had together (I don't have much money at the moment) but he seemed to really like it. Which is good because I'm a massive fanatic of all things sentimental! The day he left he drove to Halton himself which meant we had to text each other goodbye at about 1pm since I was at college and had classes to go to. We didn't talk again that first day until about 9pm, which I think is something that really did upset me because I thought that I wouldn't be able to talk to my babes until 9pm every night, which isn't ideal seems as I do love an early night. He also sent me a photo of his new haircut that night too which also upset me far more than it should have. Not because it looked bad but because it wasn't 'him'.

Day 2 - Wednesday
I think this was the hardest day out of all of them. I ended up crying to my college teacher who was kind enough to comfort me a little which was nice. I also had a driving lesson this day so had to pick myself up for that to avoid any collisions. I also saw my friend for about an hour in the evening which was nice but sure enough I went home and sobbed my heart out to my mum (who by the way has been ever so lovely). I don't think Ben messaged me again until about 9pm, which obviously I understand - he's bound to be busy. It was just difficult going from being able to talk to him about anything at any time to having to hold everything in and talk for a short time at night.He also told me this night that he wasn't sure if he wanted to continue with the training and this absolutely broke my heart as his mum had just messaged me telling me he's wanted to do this since he was 11 and I in no way wanted to affect his performance!

Day 3 - Thursday
I spent the day at my new job on Thursday so my new colleagues must think I'm the most miserable, anti-social, little bitch ever. Oh well. That evening was the worst we'd experienced as a couple though. Although I had managed to have my first phone call with him emotions were flying high and I told Ben that it would be best if we stopped seeing each other - WHAT A MISTAKE THAT WAS! Being the gentleman he is he told me that he understands and that he doesn't want to argue with me. I then did what any typical girl would do and cried myself to sleep.

Day 4 - Friday
I firstly want to say that since Friday I have had absolutely no doubts about our relationship, I haven't cried once and I'm the happiest I have ever been! I woke up and told Ben how sorry I was for everything I had said the night before and that I was totally wrong. He forgave me and finished early that evening so we had a decent amount of time to talk that and that honestly made me so happy! I called him while I was with my mum and best friend and we had such a long and lovely conversation.

Day 5, 6 & 7 - Saturday, Sunday, Monday
Everything has been bliss the past couple of days! I've spent my time at work or with my bestie (Kathryn) and family. Ben and I are on the best terms we have ever been on and I cannot wait to see his beautiful face in just 24 days!

A Little Side Note...
Although not related to this post particularly I just want to say that although my love for all things beauty is still going strong, I want to start posting more random chats and about how my current life is going - a little bit like an open diary. When I started this blog I very much just wanted to be able to take pretty pictures of my makeup and put it on, but two years later and I've decided that, actually, I love talking and rambling on about my little life. So that's exactly what I'm going to do.

If you have any questions at all about how I'm finding life as an RAF girlfriend please don't hesitate to ask! You can even message me on my social media if you'd like. See ya soon!


Wednesday, 28 September 2016


Admittedly, most people probably haven't noticed my absences from the world of blogging, but I have decided to return from my not so little break and thought a short but sweet explanation may be useful. Here goes!

The Past:
Like most people (I hope) I blog for the enjoyment. So, without going into too much detail as to why I wasn't exactly enjoying life when I stopped blogging it had something to do with the fact I had just come out of a fairly lengthy relationship and was quickly approaching my AS exams. I also wasn't enjoying school at all, partly down to the dreaded English lessons I had to attend and I guess I just didn't want the added pressure of keeping a blog while going through several stressful experiences.

The Present:
Now though, I am sure you will be glad to hear that I am in a far better place, hence the return to my blog. In the few months I have been away I have managed to pass my AS exams (although I will hopefully be retaking one exam to do even better), I have passed my driving theory test, started seeing someone new, found a new best friend, dropped English at school and started my UCAS applications - fun times!

The Future:
The future is looking bright, but also challenging. The wonderful new gentleman I have recently started seeing is joining the RAF soon so that in itself is going to be an obstacle I am raring to overcome. In the time he's away I hope to better myself by staying positive, continuing to surround myself with the right people and studying extra hard. My driving test is booked (but that's a secret, shh), my 18th birthday is just around the corner and it's currently my favourite time of year! I'm prepared for the difficult decisions that I may have to face soon and I have also learnt that it's ok to feel down sometimes; everything always happens for a reason. Life is bliss.

Here's to many more blog posts to follow, CHEERS!!


Tuesday, 12 April 2016


As you may or may not have noticed I haven't blogged for a while. Without going into too much detail, because I want my blog to be somewhere both I and anyone else can come for a peaceful read, I broke up with my (at the time) boyfriend. Just to get it out there though I am not upset about the breakup, I'm actually in a really happy place at the moment and I am more than aware that I don't, nor does any other female, need a man in their life to be happy.

Now I've cleared that up I can get into what I think is a very exciting post! Just before easter my family got two new bunnies. I'm not entirely sure what breed they are but of course I do know that they're both females and are about 24 weeks old. The black one is mine and is called Muffin and the white, patchy one is my sisters and is called Jambo. I took the photos a while back when they were still living inside and only just being introduced to their run, hence why their cage is inside and their run is on the patio. Now however, they're living outside in their hutch and they love running around their run on the grass. 

I'm also going to apologise now for the lack of uploads that are on their way. I'm in exam season now and I'm a ridiculous stress head anyway, but hopefully I'll be uploading a lot more in the summer when I have 6 weeks off - I can't wait.


Tuesday, 8 March 2016


While I was in London I paid a visit to Urban Decay where I decided to pick up the All Nighter Makeup Setting Spray after hearing amazing things about it online. I have to say though, I've been really disappointed with it.

Let's start at the beginning - the packaging. I really like the colours and the simplicity of the design, however I even dislike the material of the bottle. It's the sort of sticky plastic which gets dirty really quickly. And obviously, since it's a setting spray I use it after touching a bunch of other makeup, meaning the bottle just gets really grubby really quickly. Having said that the gift bags that Urban Decay sell their products in are super cute, especially if you're buying something as a gift for someone else.

The box and the bottle of the spray clearly state the instructions: "mist face 2-4 times in an "X"and "T" formation" as well as claiming what the product should do: stop the makeup from melting, cracking, fading or setting into fine line. So, how much do I agree with this statement? Not very much at all. I haven't seen a difference since using the spray; at the end of a school day my makeup still sets into fine lines and cracks/cakes up in certain areas, for example around my nose. The spray cost me £22 and to be honest, I'm gutted that I didn't buy the Naked Illuminated instead!

I'm don't want to the person who puts you off buying this product because I know a lot of other people have had a huge success with it! Especially if you're after a setting spray particularly to keep oily skin at bay as Urban Decay do have a spray particularly for that.

I will continue to use this product, especially in the summer when it's much warmer and if I do notice anything and begin to like it I will write an update straight away. If you've tried the spray and it worked for you then please tell me your secrets! I hope this post was in some way helpful.


Tuesday, 1 March 2016


Reading and watching other people's monthly favourites is one of my favourite so it's surprising that I've never written one myself. But, of course, there's a first time for everything. I haven't found that many favourites this month and I'm not sure it's because nothing else can compare to the things that I have liked, or if I genuinely just haven't (re)discovered anything and fallen in love with it. Having said that I do still have a few things that I've been really enjoying so without further ado, let's get into the post.
My first favourite this month is the khaki bomber jacket in the image above. I've seen a lot of bomber jackets across social media and in multiple shops over the past few weeks and the more I saw them the more I couldn't resist. Since my favourite colour is khaki at the moment that's the colour I decided the get, especially as the model wearing the coat really suited it and had blonde hair. Since I ordered the coat online I decided to order one from Newlook for £35 as I trust the quality of Newlook and it would have been easy enough to return if I decided that I didn't like it. Although I don't think £35 is an unreasonable amount of money to pay for a coat that I will wear a lot over the spring and summe I do know that have a lot of cheaper alternatives if you're willing to take the chance.

It's funny how I never used to wear eyeshadow but now I can't imagine not wearing it. So obviously, that means that I want it to last all day, and what better way to make that happen than by using a primer? I remember receiving four, free sample Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potions when I got my Naked 3 palette. Despite them only being sample there's loads of product in each sachet so although I haven't made any plans to purchase a full sized one yet, I definitely will be when I run out!

One of my New Year's resolutions was to develop a decent skincare routine. Since January I picked up a small version of the Garnier Micellar Cleansing Water and I love it so much! It's the most amazing makeup remover I have ever used and because it's so good at removing all my makeup it means my pores aren't clogged equalling no spots! It's also super cheap so that's a bonus!

While trying different skin care products I've also been battling with my blackheads. As disgusting as they are everybody has them and everybody is desperate to get rid of them. I often scroll through the app "Wish" - probably when I'm procrastinating. One of the things I always see on there are these black blackhead strips. Before I ordered them I had no idea that the actual strips were of a thick liquid formula that you paste onto your skin yourself. It's much more practical as everyone's nose and face shape are different. And of course they work, else they wouldn't be in my favourites.

My next favourite is a makeup item and it's the ABH Dipbrow Pomade in the shade Medium Brown. I don't believe that this is the first time I have mentioned this little jar of wonder on my blog and it definitely won't be the last. I know I'm a little late on the bandwagon, but I was always a little sceptical about getting it in the first place as I thought it was going to be super expensive, but actually it was £15, which isn't too bad at all, especially when you consider how high quality it is and how long it will last.

Every day since Christmas I have worn the Britney Spears Fantasy perfume and it is beautiful! However, over the past few weeks I decided to switch to using a perfume from the Body Shop called Japanese Cherry Blossom Eau De Toilette. It's such a pretty, floral scent and makes me feel so much better when I wear it.

My final favourite is this beautiful 'Rebel Purse'. Originally I bought it from Topshop, but it is from the brand Skinny Dip and while I was in London I went into Skinny Dip and also saw the purse in there. As well as the black and white pattern going beautifully with the yellow, the black pompom also makes it that little bit better!

I hope you enjoyed this post. Hopefully I'll be doing more monthly favourites in the future!


Sunday, 14 February 2016


A couple of days ago I went on a one-night stay to London with my college. The trip was based around media related activities, however we did have free time and not everything we did was media related.

On the first day we left at 8:30 and arrived at about 11:30. We went to the London Film Museum which was based all around the Bond films, meaning all the cars were on display. After a self-guided tour we had free time in Covent Garden where my friend and I went shopping. After checking into our 'hotel' (hostel) we went for dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe before going to watch a show: The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime, which was really good! The next day we went to the BBFC studio in Soho, which was probably my favourite thing (I've written a blog post on a subject mentioned there). We then had free time in Soho to get lunch before heading home.

 I enjoyed having the time off school and being able to spend quality time with my friend Amie. She's the brunette in some of the photos and her Instagram is amierowbotham_ if you want to follow her - she is extremely talented at makeup. I hope you enjoy the photos I've included and the post in general.

Saturday, 13 February 2016


This valentine's post is going to be a hair, makeup and outfit idea for a casual date where, of course, you still want to look like you've put the effort in without going over the top.

For the outfit I decided to go quite casual by pairing a black, tight top (from Primark) with a pair of ripped, Jamie jeans (from Topshop). To vamp the look up I decided to wear a pair of black heals (from Newlook) and use a cute purse (from Skinnydip/Topshop). The coat I chose (from Topshop) was navy and fairly smart looking, while still being warm and stylish.

In terms of my hair, I used my GHD Curve Creative Curl Wand on the ends of my hair before using a wide tooth comb to gently backcomb the curls to help separate them and create more volume. To achieve even more volume I sprayed dry shampoo into the roots of my hair.

Makeup: Maxfactor Lasting Performance foundation, Collection Lasting Perfection concealer, ABH Contour Kit, Sleek contour kit (for blush), Mac Mineralize Skinfinish in Lightscapade, Collection Speedy Highlight, Urban Decay Naked 3 palette (Burnout all over the lid and Mugshot in the crease), Benefit They're Real Push-Up Liner, Avon Super Shock mascara, NO. 7 Highshine lip crayon and ABH Dipbrow Pomade.

Happy Valentine's day!

Friday, 12 February 2016


For those of you who don't know I recently visited London with my college on a Media trip. I usually wouldn't talk about something like this in my blog, but Media is something I feel really passionate about and it's something that interests me. I usually try to avoid having opinions on controversial topics and I don't judge those I don't know. However, this is my blog and my opinions. If you disagree with anything in this post then that's fine, I actually love to see things from other people's point of view - but obviously only when they're polite.

While in London we visited the BBFC Studio in Soho. I already knew a little bit about the BBFC as I had researched a small amount for my media coursework. For those of you who don't know, the BBFC are the British Board of Film Classification, meaning they are in charge of what age rating a film gets: U, PG, 12/12A, 15 or 18. We had a talk by a lady, whose name I unfortunately don't remember, and I actually really enjoyed it. She gave us lots of 'behind the scenes' information and one of the things she told us was about a film that was sent into them called "Paint Drying". I'm sure you're familiar with the expression "watching paint dry", because it was exactly that. A young man named Charlie Lyne made and sent a video to the BBFC of paint drying. Lyne managed to raise enough money to send 10 hours worth of the original 14 hour clip in an attempt to protest film censorship. Not only do I disagree with the protest, I also think there were multiple things wrong with it and I don't think Lyne was knowledgeable enough to make a judgement on the BBFC, despite him being a 'film maker'.

So, why do I disagree with the protest? The idea was that Lyne, and those who helped him raise the money didn't agree that the BBFC have the right to decide what the general public can and can't watch. However, while being at the studio I quickly understood that the ratings given to films are mainly used as guidelines to help parents understand what is suitable for their children, and also to help adults who aren't so keen on the highest levels on violence, gore, drug use and sex (which may be presented in a certificate 18) meaning they therefore opt for a 15 or lower rated film instead. I do believe that film classification is important, especially because it isn't the end of the world if you want to see an 18 but you're underage. You cannot legally go to the cinema to watch a film or buy a film if you're underage but there is nothing stopping you from actually watching the film.

There are well known violent crimes that have occurred as a result of children watching films rated way beyond their age. For example, the James Bulger story. A young boy was brutally beaten and murdered by two older boys, aged just 10 years old, as they attempted to imitate a scene from Child's Play. Obviously, the boys who committed the crime didn't buy or go to the cinema to watch the film, so in some respect the BBFC's rating has nothing to do with the story. However, by having the rating on films it helps (responsible) parents to make quick assumptions in whether or not their child should watch a certain film or not. Obviously, young children should not watch certain things and the BBFC ensure that nothing dangerous is included in younger rated films to avoid imitation.

The BBFC are a non-profit organisation and do not set out to reject films or give them ratings other than what the film ideally wants. In fact, the BBFC are there to help film companies/makers when it comes to giving them a rating in order for them to release their film in cinemas and on DVD. In the past 4 years only one film has been rejected due to it being largely based on sadistic sexual violence. Which as a rule, tells you that adults are pretty much entitled to view anything they wish. I don't know a whole lot about "film making", but if Lyne and other film makers were any good at their job they'd have a target audience (who he films is aimed at). The certificates given by the BBFC are not strict and and allow for any target audience. For example, a good film will never be aimed at adults (certificate 18) and four year old children (universal certificate). This leads me to question why people protest against the BBFC. Also, as mention previously, the BBFC are there to help films receive the rating they want. The BBFC gives film makers/institutions the opportunity to include what they would like their film to be rated. They then make notes on the film and advise, if anything, what needs to be changed in order for that film to achieve a certain certificate.

Not all films need to be certified by the BBFC. Films that can be streamed, for example on Netflix, don't need a rating. However, it's extremely common that they do because the ratings are recognisable and therefore help to cover the film from any complaints. 

For Lyne to have protested in a way like this it must have meant he was passionate about the subject and had done lot of research around the topic to develop a full understanding. However, to me, his story doesn't add up. Originally Lyne planned to send a 14 hour long film, but instead only sent a 10 hour long film after "forgetting" VAT. Lyne relied on the money of strangers to send his film but couldn't even give them reliable information about the protest. Similarly, Lyne thought, and spoke out about how two examiners would watch his film for 8.5 hours per day. However, this was also wrong. Multiple examiners watched different parts of the film in pairs, each only watching a few hours at a time. 
Not only did Lyne tell his donors the wrong information, he also pretty much failed on his attempt to protest; sitting and relaxing for a couple of hours, WHILE GETTING PAID, isn't such a terrible thing, right?

For those of you interested in how the examination went, the BBFC took it extremely seriously as they would any other film - proving that they're an extremely reliable source. In the talk, it was revealed that the examiners had a suspicion of Lyne including some pornographic images etc. partway through the film, however the film genuinely was just paint drying on a wall, meaning the certificate given was U.

I hope you enjoyed this post, whether you agree or not. I'm going to be uploading some images I took in London soon so hopefully, if you didn't like this post, that post will be a little bit more up your street. Thank you for reading and please feel free to leave your own opinion in the comments.

Tuesday, 9 February 2016


I first heard about of the company Morphe a couple of days after Christmas - which would make sense as others would have been posting their new Morphe products online. In particular I saw a lot of the Morphe eye-shadow palettes. Despite being intrigued I decided not to look online because I had just received some lovely makeup for Christmas and didn't want to spend my money on another eye-shadow palette, just after my parents had brought me one. Since I hadn't looked online I just assumed that these palettes were going to be pricey. How wrong I was! These palettes are £15/£16 for 35 different shades! Wow! That's around £2.30 for one eye-shadow. My lovely friends brought me my palette for my birthday and I was so excited when I opened it! And excited I should have been as this palette is amazing!

I believe the reason for these eye-shadows being so cheap is because of the high talc content. Obviously I don't know the science behind how makeup is made but I do believe that usually high end eye-shadows tend to have a lower talc content. I don't think this should put you off at all though! It's not as if it means that these eye shadows aren't pigmented - because trust me they are! In fact, the majority of these eye-shadows are even more pigmented than a couple of the eye shadows from the Urban Decay Naked 3 palette. 

The packaging isn't great and it does look quite cheap, however when you're paying £15 for 35 good eye-shadows I don't think packaging is a massive issue. Another little downside to the product is how easily it wipes off. I have worn a day look using this palette which has honestly lasted me all day, however I think if you're planning to use this palette for a night out etc. then you'd be far better off using a primer first.

The colour range in the palette is fantastic for warmer skin tones - as the name suggests. But don't worry if you have a cooler skin tone because Morphe also have a palette especially for cooler skin tones. There are also a lovely range of both matte and shimmery shades, which is always nice. The shadows also blend easily, which is something I wasn't expecting.

I've swatched the shadows for you so you can hopefully see how pigmented the colours are. I've swatched row by row starting from the top.

Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed the post! I'm going to London on Thursday and am filming for my Media course work next week so hopefully there will be some interesting posts on the way!